On Earth As It Is In Heaven...

I’ve been such an ignorant fool. I’ve spent so much time wondering who my wife is. All because of a dream? I’m not saying that my dreams don’t hold truth. I’m simply saying that the truth they hold should not be uncovered until the day is right. I have put my current mission on hold. It’s been on the shelf collecting dust. It is time to put my crown back on and pick up where I left off. I remember a time when I was so in love with God. He was my every meal. He was life. I had regular conversations with him. I dreamed about him. I heard his voice. I had clarity. Then I stepped down from that. I casted it off to the side and took part in a relationship that I was never suppose to be in. I was aware of this fact, yet I ignored and let my sin consume me. Blinded by my own ignorance and drive for something great, I said it was God. I was believing every lie the enemy threw my way. It led me to the point where I was set up for marriage. Then It hit. I knew I wasn’t suppose to be in that position. The wrenching feeling in my gut was telling me so. Then the Lord spoke. Once he spoke, I knew what I had to do. I ended it. Then began the rehab stage. Which I just finished like five minutes ago. Haha. It was a stage of recouping. Filled with unclear thoughts, anger, frustration, the whole shebang. I had to overcome pride. I had to overcome every obstacle that was keeping me from seeing the truth. The truth is that we can have everything and more in Christ. He is the one who brings clarity, peace, fullness of joy. There is a reason why he is the light. He takes us out of the dark places that we find ourselves in. He is everything that matters. Nothing else is important. Nothing else can give us and promise us everything that our Father has. God is love. God is truth. God is peace. God is everything.